Monday, July 12, 2010


"Anyone can sympathise with the sufferings of a friend, but it takes a fine nature to sympathise with a friend's success," Oscar Wilde

I am guilty.

I have suffered from envy. Friend envy - and it's the worst. The pits I tell ya.

I am not really a materialistic person, I do however like nice things. I want to be able to take whirlwind weekend jaunts to Vegas with my friends; I want that gorgeous Michael Kors clutch; I want to wear that hot pink mini out in the market and be stared at for all the right (errr, wrong) reasons....

So, I work hard and hope that the old saying of 'good things come to those who wait' is really true.

However, that does not apply to weight loss. You have to work really hard for weight loss and not just 'wait'. I am getting weighed tonight. I'm not entirely sure of why I have been in such a downward spiral these past few weeks. After reading some other blogs, some of you have been too.

I spent this past weekend trying to figure out why I am sabotaging myself, why I cringe at compliments, why I envy slimmer people. I don't have all the answers but I did come to realize that envy is not the answer. That only sets me up for another downfall.

My friends love me for me and I love them for them. Exactly as we are. Will they love me more when I'm thinner - well, the best I have come up with is that they will react to the happiness and peace I come to with myself once I set out, reach and succeed at my goals.

Maybe then I'll be the subject of envy...



  1. I think envy is a natural feeling to have when you want something SOOOOO badly! Keep doing what you can do when you can do it. You'll get to where you want to be weight-wise at your own pace. And know what? You'll still be you and just as likeable as you ever have been!

  2. i just started following you and just caught up on all your posts....#1 i love the way you write! #2 you are gorgeous #3 i love your positivity and i can't wait to follow you on your journey! :-)

  3. Been there done that...
    I was thinking the exact same thing yesterday and sometimes it puts me in a MOOD!
    Positive thoughts for the weigh in day sunshine!

  4. I agree with Lanie! I absolutely love your blog! I love all your quotes at the start of each posts.

    Umm...I also love nice things as well. Michael Kors or Marc Jacobs? Yes please!

  5. Great your daily quotes.
    Hang in there...this week will be better for us all.


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