Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Reason Wednesday.

"Greatness lies not only in being strong, but in the right use of strength," Henry Ward Beecher

Beautiful bloggers - how I have missed you so.

I have also missed me so too.

You would be so disappointed in me if you only knew... lazy I have become. HORRIBLY I have been eating. glutunous I am. unmotivated I was.

I'm back because of yesterday.

I was at work and had a meeting. I wore a black business suit with a white blouse underneath.

I have never felt so uncomfortable in my entire life.

Friends, I am going to be honest in that, I seriously had trouble breathing. I was sitting at my desk and could not believe that I was that person. The person who has perhaps eaten way too much in the last few weeks. The person that needs new clothes because her old ones don't fit her anymore - all of her own doing.

I have hit the bottom. That has to be the bottom the way I was feeling yesterday.

I weighed myself when I went to my b/f's house last night as well and I am up. Big time.

I don't know why I keep thinking the weight is going to come off - just like that. Snap of the finger. Clap of the hand.

Why am I so disillusioned about this?

Frankly, I'm lazy. And I hate to say that people who are overweight are lazy - I am speaking specifically about MY case. I have been lazy.

I am working on figuring this thing out one hour at a time, one day at a time.

I am back reading and following your successes and mistrials. I need to be motivated and you do it for me. Big time.

Thank you.